On Stage at Jacob's Ladder 
2015

On Stage at Jacob's Ladder 2015

SONiA disappear fear CATALOGUE
recorded under SONiA or disappear fear or SONiA and disappear fear or SONiA of disappear fear or SONiA & disappear fear or SONiA disappear fear
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2016 LiVE at MAXiMAL - 20 songs recorded at the Maximal Club in Rodgau, Germany 
2013 Broken Film - popfolk recorded in Nashville - Mike Poole w/ Don Conoscenti, Done Kerce, Elaine Romaneli
2011 Get Your Phil - the songs of Phil Ochs recorded in one weekend SONiA & Cindy vocals one guitar one piano
2010 Blood Bones and Baltimore - Blues and Folk  (one Woody Guthrie Cover)
2009 Splash - features By My Silence, Love Names Me, Show Me the Someone & featured tunes of Tango & No Bomb
2008 Tango - WORLD MUSIC - recorded in Spanish, Hebrew Arabic & English all original semi finalist for Grammy
2005 DF05 LiVE - popular songs from the Kerrville Folk Festival and San Diego trio with Laura Cerulli- all LIVE
2004 No Bomb is Smart - features 'Won't Let Go' , folk pop country songs produced by Bill Cuomo/ Craig Krampf
2002 LiVE at the Down Home - popular songs one guitar  in one hot full house crowd at the best little club in america
1999 Me Too pop folk country all original features song of the year Me, Too = produced by John Grant
1998 Almost Chocolate - folk rock pop lots of acoustic guitars - SDF FIRST SOLO  CD recorded by Danny Bernini
1996 Seed in the Sahara Philo Records (Rounder) produced by E street Band Roy Bittan full DFband Hollywood CA
1994 disappear fear (Philo Records) ROCK- produced by Craig Krampf all original guests INDIGO GIRLS & JANIS IAN  
1992 LiVE at the Bottom Line - folk pop original SONiA & Cindy harmonies over songs of love & social justice
1990 Deep Soul DIver sophomore DF CD pop folk sisters harmonies lush leaning towards pop fun
1989 Echo My Call pop folk lush arrangements from the anthemic Vertigo/ about Chernobyl - boppy Pretty Boy,
1988 All Night Long (Live from Buddies in Baltimore) live at Buddies Bar in Blatimore with Steve Raskin on percussion
1983-86 SONiA goes 80’s with exhibit A featuring progressive punk trio exibit A Diane Bowman and Janet Guerra 
          (synthesizers by Donna Katrinic) recorded in Baltimore and Cue Studios in Falls Church VA

 
SEED IN THE SAHARA  words and music SONiA Rutstein Copyright 1995 Warner Chappel Publishing 


something more than conversation carries you to me
something in the early morning gives me light to see

what i’m looking for is true community
not speculation not imitation
old and young rich and dumb
kings and queens and all you in betweens
'cause Love dosen’t care
it takes you as you are
it takes you as you are

when you put your arms around me
that’s when i am free
just to touch the world you walk in
gives me strength to see

what i’m looking for is true community
not speculation not imitation
old and young rich and dumb
kings and queens and all you in betweens
'cause Love dosen’t care
it takes you as you are
it takes you as you are

if a seed falls down
where the ground is so hard
it will just blow away and die
but if that seed somehow
makes it trhough some crack
finds its roots and reaches for the sky

there are some seeds that fall 
down into the darkest holes
they grow up anyway
despite gravity
despite society
despite nega- nega- nega- negativity

what i’m looking for is true community
not speculation not imitation
old and young rich and dumb
kings and queens and all you in betweens
'cause Love dosen’t care
it takes you as you are
it takes you as you are
L KOL L VAV CHA (WITH ALL MY HEART)
words and music Sonia Rutstein.  Ainos Music. BMi. All rights reserved 
(from LiVE at MAXiMAL DOUBLE CD. 2016 and Broken Film CD 2013)

i think ultimately we have to save ourselves  -not to be selfish or greedy and not for a rainy day.
Infact just the opposite -in Pittsburgh P.A. I find the healing to this feeling is by giving it all away.
With all my heart. With all my soul and all myself -with all my heart with all my soul and all myself.
Would you please stretch your shoulders -all across the ocean so I can ride above the monsters
i don't know or trust or see. Would you please tell me when it gets easier when.
he who makes peace above make peace below
L KOL L VAV CHA NOF CHE CHA L KOL ME O DECHA 
Would you please do the right thing. Like you said you would so 
we can have our wedding loud and perfectly good. 
With all my heart with all my soul and all myself.  With all my heart with all my soul and all myself.
Oh say shalom bin roman who yah a say shalom alienu ve yakol 
ah ah ah ....

Start \ music & lyrics - Sonia Rutstein & Klaus Caprani  BMI all rights reserved from Broken Film CD 2013 on disappear records

 

טומי צפה בטלויזיה

באחר צהריים שגרתי

גבר צעיר דיבר עם ילדים

אמר משהו על הושטת יד לירח

והילדים הקשיבו בתשומת לב

כי לגבר היתה רק זרוע אחת ולא היו לו רגליים

"המדינה שלי הפכה אותי לחייל

אפגניסטן לא יכולה לקחת זאת ממני

אינני מוכרח לשאת את המשקל הזה לבדי

איש אינו אי ואיש אינו לבדו

ואני לא זקוק לידיים

כדי לאחוז בליבו של אדם אחר

ואני לא זקוק לתוכנית

עליי רק להתחיל"

 

בפינת חדר אחורי, על שולחן עבודה

מכוסה באבק ובהזנחה

טום מצא ריבוע נייר חום

עם מספר הטלפון של הבת שעזב

"אבא היקר, אם אתה קורא את המכתב הזה

אז אני מושיטה אליך יד מהשמיים

אף פעם לא אמרתי לך שאני אוהבת אותך

אך לא התכוונתי שניפרד לשלום

אינך צריך לשאת את המשקל הזה

איש אינו אי ואיש אינו לבדו

ואתה לא זקוק לידיים

כדי לאחוז בליבו של אדם אחר

ואתה לא זקוק לתוכנית

עליך רק להתחיל"

 

טום ישב בחזרה בכורסא

לגם לגימה אחרונה של בירה

משורר, צייר, מאהב, בן

עבריין מורשע, מכור, גיבור

וכשדמעות זלגו מעיניו

הבין שזה מתורבת

מה שהופך גיבור לאדם

"איני צריך לשאת את המשקל לבדי

מורכב ברובי ממים ולא מאבן

ואני לא זקוק לידיים

כדי לאחוז בליבו של אדם אחר

ואני לא זקוק לתוכנית

עליי רק להתחיל"

 

Tommy was watching some TV

On a very ordinary afternoon

A young man was talking to children

Said something ‘bout reaching for the moon

And the children listened intently

Cause the man had one arm and no legs

“My country made me a soldier

Afghanistan can’t take that away

I don’t have to carry this load on my own

No one’s an island and no one’s alone

And I don’t need hands

To hold somebody’s heart

And I don’t need plans

I just need to start”

 

On a back bedroom desk in a corner

All covered with dust and neglect

Tom found a brown square of paper

With the number of the daughter that he left

“Dear Dad If you’re reading this letter

Then I’m reaching for you from the sky

I never told you I love you

Never will that mean goodbye

You don’t have to carry this load on your own

No one’s an island and no one’s alone

And you don’t need hands

To hold somebody’s heart

And you don’t need plans

You just need to start”

 

Tom sat back down in his easy chair

Took one good last gulp of beer

A poet, a painter, a lover, a son

A convict, an addict, a hero of one

And as the tears fell from his eyes

He realized it’s civilized

What makes a hero a man

“I don’t have to carry this load on my own

I’m mostly made of water not stone

And I don’t need hands

To hold somebody’s heart

I don’t need plans

I just need to start”

 

 

Love Out Loud- music & lyrics by Sonia Rutstein  all rights reserved BMI  from the CD Broken Film 2013
on disappear records

 

(אני רוצה לשמוע אותך)

(אני רוצה לראות אותך)

 

אמור בוקר טוב לאמא ולאבא

כאילו לא תראה אותם יותר

ראה אותם כקורבנות לבבותיהם השבורים

ודע שאינך שונה כל כך

 

ואתה בוכה על הגבעה

חושב, למה זה עדיין כל כך כואב?

 

אתה צריך לאהוב בקול רם

לאהוב בקול רם

לאהוב בקול רם

בקול רם, בקול רם

 

אמור להתראות לאתמול עכשיו

הוא רק זכרון בבית הפחדים

סגור את הדלת, היא מחצית מגודלך

עדיף להיות בצד השני

אי שם בחוץ

 

ואתה רובץ על הגבעה

חiש בכוח שלך, הזן את כוח הרצון שלך

נושא אותך הביתה

 

אתה צריך לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לשמוע אותך)

לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לראות אותך)

לאהוב בקול רם

בקול רם, בקול רם

 

ואתה בוכה על הגבעה
חושב, למה זה עדיין כל כך כואב?

 

אתה צריך לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לשמוע אותך)
לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לראות אותך)
לאהוב בקול רם (קדימה)
בקול רם, בקול רם

 

 

(I wanna hear you)

(I wanna see you)

Say good morning to your mom and pop

Like you may never see them again

See them as the victims of their broken hearts

Know you’re not so different

 

And you cry on a hill

Thinking why does it still hurt so bad?

 

You Gotta Love Out Loud

Love Out Loud

Love out Loud

Out Loud Out Loud

 

Say goodbye to yesterday now

It’s just a memory in a house of fear

Close the door it’s half your size

Best to be on the other side

And out of there

 

And you side on the hill

Feel your strength, feed your will

Taking you home

 

You Gotta Love Out Load (I wanna hear you)

Love Out Loud (I wanna see you)

Love Out Loud

Out Loud Out Loud

 

And you cry on the hill

Thinking how come it still hurts so bad?

 

You Gotta Love Out Load (I wanna hear you)

Love Out Loud (I wanna see you)

Love Out Loud (Come on)

Out Loud Out Loud

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FARMLAMD AND THE SKY  
WORDS AND MUSIC SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM Broken Film CD released 2013 and LiVE at MAXiMAL released 2016


ON A TRAIN FROM AMSTERDAM TO LEIDEN I CAN SEE THE FARMLAMD AND THE SKY.
I WILL BE THE TULIPS IN YOUR GARDEN TIL I AM THE GARDEN GOING BY.
MY LITTLE SISTER JANE SO YOUNG YET SO WISE CAME UP ON ME ON OUR WEDDING DAY.
AND THE GIFT SHE GAVE WAS BETTER THAN MCDONALD'S FRENCH FRIES ALL SHE SAID
ALL SHE SAID WAS "STAY AWAKE -IT ALL GOES BY SO FAST, LIVE YOUR LIFE
-CAUSE TODAY WON'T LAST"

NOW JANE'S GONNA HAVE A BABY. I'M THE AUNT THATS A LUXORY. I'LL GET TO TEACH GUITAR 
AND GIVE 'EM CANDY AND PROBABLY LEAVE THE DIAPER CHANGES TO NANCY.
IT'S THE CHASES I'VE BEEN CHANGING, LIKE THE NUMBERS THAT CONSUME ME.
I CANT' PROMISE TO QUIT RACING HOPPING LANE TO TRAIN TO PLANE MAKING SUITCASE MOVIES.
 "STAY AWAKE IT ALL GOES BY SO FAST LOVE YOUR LIFE -CAUSE TODAY WON'T LAST"

SO I SING THIS SONG TO MICAH,ZACH, AND DYLAN AND YOU AND YOU AND YOU.
TO STAY ABOVE THE GOSSIP AND THE RUIN - WATER YOUR SOUL AND YOU'LL KEEP BLOOMING.
"STAY AWAKE IT ALL GOES BY SO FAST LIVE YOUR LOVE
-CAUSE TODAY WON'T LAST"

 
WASHINGTON WORK SONG
lyrics and music by Sonia RUTSTEIN 
from the cd Disappear Fear 1994 and Live at the Down Home 2001 and LiVE at MAXiMAL 2016

THERES BLOOD ON THE SIDEWALK FROM SOMEONE I DONT KNOW I STEP AROUND IT
SO I WONT GET IT ON MY SHOE
ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON 
ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON DC
MY NAME IS AMERICA BUT I PRONOUNCE IT GEORGE
SOME PEOPLE THINK I'M RICH BUT I AM MOSTLY POOR 
AND I COVER IT UP TO GET YOU TO FIGHT IN MY WARS.
THE TRUTH IS I AM MY OWN ENEMY BUT I'LL BUY ANYTHING YOU ADVERTISE ON TV
ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON 
ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON DC
GOT TO MAKE IT LOOK GOOD GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD
GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD 
EVERY FRIDAY KAREN AND KATIE GO TO TAKE CARE OF BABIES WITH AIDS
WHO WERE BORN LIKE THEIR MOTHERS ADDICTED TO CRACK 
YEAH THEY WERE DRINKING THEIR BOTTLES LYING ON THEIR BACKS 
AND JUST LIKE THEIR FATHERS MOM AIN'T COMING BACK 
ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON 
ON MY WAY TO WORK IN WASHINGTON DC
GOT TO MAKE IT LOOK GOOD GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD
GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD 

THERES BLOOD ON THE SIDEWALK FROM SOMEONE I DONT KNOW I STEP AROUND IT 
SO I WONT GET IT ON MY SOUL ....WELL, THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE
THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE
GOT TO MAKE IT LOOK GOOD GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD
GOTTA MAKE IT LOOK GOOD 
ON OUR WAY...THERE WE ARE ON OUR WAY HERE WE ARE ON OUR WAY 
TO WASHINGTON DC...
 
RED HEAVEN
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY SONIA RUTSTEIN 
from the CD LiVe at the Bottom Line 1992 and LiVE at MAXiMAL 2016

I'M FEELING SO LONELY I'M FEELING SO LONELY I'M FEELING SO LONELY
AND I'M THINKING OF YOU I'M THINKING OF YOU.
YOU SAID YOU'D NEVER BREAK MY HEART YOU SAID YOU'D NEVER BREAK MY HEART
YOU SAID YOU'D NEVER BREAK MY HEART AND I'M BROKEN IN TWO I'M BROKEN IN TWO.

TAKE THAT BIG CLOCK AWAY THE HANDS OF TIME REFUSE TO LISTEN 
OR CONDUCT MY SYMPHONY A SAD ADDAGIO WITH NO NO NO CONCLUSION.

NOW ALL WE'VE GOT ARE MEMORIES AND MINE ARE ALL OF BRILLIANT LEAVES WE'RE FLYING
THROUGH THE AUTUMN SUN FREE FALLING AS WE FLY FROM RED HEAVEN.

TAKE THAT BIG CLOCK AWAY THE HANDS OF TIME REFUSE TO LISTEN 
OR CONDUCT MY SYMPHONY A SAD ADDAGIO WITH NO NO NO CONCLUSION.

I'M FEELING SO LONELY I'M FEELING SO LONELY I'M FEELING SO LONELY
AND I'M THINKING OF YOU I'M THINKING OF YOU.
RED BECOMES BLUE.
WON'T LET GO
LYRICS AND MUSIC BY SONIA RUTSTEIN 
FROM THE CD 'NO BOMB IS SMART' 2004 and LiVE AT MAXiMAL 2016

THE VERY FIRST TIME I WAS LEARNING TO RIDE WITH OUT TRAINING WHEELS OR YOU BY MY SIDE 
DOWN A STEEP HILL I TOOK A RIGHT THERE WAS A CAR COMING AT ME AND ONE FROM BEHIND 
AND YOU SAID DONT LET GO JUST HOLD ON KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD AND YOUR HEART 
IN A SONG WHATEVER HAPPENED IS ALREADY GONE DONT LET GO DONT LET GO 


THEN WHEN I WAS TEN YOU GAVE ME A GUITAR ANDI SAID DAD I'M GONNA BE A BIG STAR AND YOU SAID 
SÔN YOU BETTER PRACTICE REAL HARD BUT TO ME YOU ALREADY ARE 
AND YOU SAID DONT LET GO JUST HOLD ON KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD AND YOUR HEART 
IN A SONG WHATEVER HAPPENED IS ALREADY GONE DONT LET GO DONT LET GO 


THEN SHE TOOK YOU TO THE DOCTOR TO GET YOU CHECKED OUT SEE WHAT THAT HEADACHE WAS REALLY ABOUT 
WHEN HE RETURNED I THOUGHT THE NEWS WOULD BE BAD NOW I'M SAYING THESE WORDS TO YOU DAD
DONT LET GO JUST HOLD ON KEEP YOUR EYES ON THE ROAD AND YOUR HEART 
IN A SONG WHATEVER HAPPENED IS ALREADY GONE DONT LET GO DONT LET GO 


THEN I HEARD YOUR VOICE AND ALL MY FEAR DISAPPEARED AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHY WE ARE HERE ITS FOR THIS MOMENT TO RECOGNIZE THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE BY MY SIDE 
AND I WONT LET GO I JUST HOLD ON GOT MY EYES ON THE ROAD AND MY HEART IN A SONG 
WHATEVER HAPPENED IS ALREADY GONE I WONT LET GO I WONT LET GO 
AND I WONT LET GO I JUST HOLD ON GOT MY EYES ON THE ROAD AND MY HEART IN A SONG 
WHATEVER HAPPENED IS ALREADY GONE I WONT LET GO I WONT LET GO I WONT LET GO ........!
ME TOO 
MUSIC AND LYRICS BY SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM THE CD ME TOO 1999 and LiVE AT MAXiMAL

HER DADDY WAS A SOLDIER IN THE VIETNAM WAR
SHE WAS PROUD TO SEE HER FATHER IN A FRESH PRESSED UNIFORM HE CAME HOME ON A STRECHER IN 1966
WELCOMED BY FELLOW AMERICANS THROWING TOMATOES AND STICKS 
HE SAID DARLING DON'T YOU WORRY THERE ARE TWO SIDES TO EVERY THING 
I DID WHAT I BELIEVED IN AND I WANT YOU TO DO THE SAME 
I STOOD UP FOR MY COUNTRY YEAH THAT'S A COMMON BET
AND I'LL STAND UP FOR FREEDOM EVERY CHANCE I GET...

CAUSE AMERICA SHINES IN FRONT OF ME AND ALL THE WORLD COULD SEE IF THEY WANTED TO 
I RAISE THIS FLAG FOR YOU...ME TOO 

SHE GREW UP ON THE BIBLE SHE GREW UP ON LOVE SHE GREW UP THINKING
SHE COULD CHANGE THE WORLD IF SHE ONLY WORKED HARD ENOUGH 
SO SHE BECAME A LAWYER HOPED TO MARRY A GOOD LOOKING MAN 
BUT SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH THE GIRL NEXT DOOR SO THAT WASN'T PART OF THE PLAN 

BUT AMERICA SHINES IN FRONT OF ME AND ALL THE WORLD COULD SEE IF THEY WANTED TO 
I RAISE THIS FLAG FOR YOU...ME TOO

THE YEARS SPIN BY WHILE THE CORN GROWS HIGH 
FOR EVERY TRAIN YOU CATCH YOU MISS ONE 
TOO MUCH OF LIFE JUST PASSES BY IT WAS TIME TO TELL DADDY THIS ONE 

SHE SAT DOWN IN THE CORNER SHE COULD STILL SEE THE DOOR 
SHE SAID I GOTTA TELL YOU SOMETHING I'VE NEVER SAID BEFORE 
AND HE SAID SHHHHHHHH EVERY BODY HAS A WAR
YOU SEE IT'S NOT ABOUT OIL AND IT'S NOT ABOUT GUNS 
IT'S NOT ABOUT RAINBOWS IT'S ABOUT DAUGHTERS AND SONS 
IF YOU BELIEVE IN TOMORROW THEN I HAVE TAUGHT YOU WELL 
CAUSE IF YOU DON'T BELIEVE IN YOURSELF
LIFE'S A LIVING HELL 

AND YOU'LL ALWAYS SHINE IN FRONT OF ME 
AND ALL THE WORLD COULD SEE IF THEY WANTED TO 
I RAISE THIS FLAG FOR YOU ME TOO
I RAISE THIS FLAG FOR YOU ME TOO
LONG LONG WAY TO GO
BY SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM THE CD LIVE AT THE BOTTOM LINE (1992) and LiVE AT MAXiMAL (2016)

GOD GAVE ME THIS HERE GUITAR POINTED TO THE FURTHEST STAR AND SAID
"SONE YOU GOT A LONG LONG WAY TO GO"
I SAID, "I'M THE DAUGHTER YOU NEVER HAD AND I'M REALLY GOOD WHEN I'M BEEING BAD
AND I'M ABOUT TO CUT THE STRINGS ON THIS PUPPET SHOW"

NOW--TO BE A STICK OF DYNAMITE, PREDICTING RAIN NOT A CLOUD IN SIGHT
THAT'S WHO I AM AND THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO FOR YOU

WELL I WAS GOING OUT THE OTHER NIGHT AND I WAS WEARING MY FAVORITE JEANS ALRIGHT
PLENTY OF HOLES AND PLENTY OF LEG IN SIGHT. " HOW COME YOU'RE WEARING THAT?", HE SAID
"CAUSE THE PEOPLE ARE STARVING AND THE PEOPLE ARE TRHEADS AND I'LL WEAR THESE JEANS
TILL EVERYBODY'S FED".

NOW TO BE A STICK OF DYNAMITE PREDICTING LOVE NOT A SOUL IN SIGHT
THAT'S WHO I AM AND THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO FOR YOU

MAYBE WISH MAYBE THAT MAYBE THIS IS ALL THE LOVE WE CAN MUSTER UP....

I CALLED MY FRIEND THE OTHER DAY HE LIVES IN THAT MAGIC TOWN OF L.A.
HIS ANSWERING MACHINE SAID,  "LEAVE A MESSAGE FRIEND" IT SAID, "PRACTISE RANDOM ACTS
OF KINDNESS AND SENSELESS ACTS OF BEAUTY AND PUT YOUR CLICHE SOFTLY IN THE END"

NOW--TO BE A STICK OF DYNAMITE, PREDICTING RAIN NOT A CLOUD IN SIGHT
THAT'S WHO I AM AND THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO FOR YOU

NOW TO BE A STICK OF DYNAMITE PREDICTING LOVE NOT A SOUL IN SIGHT
THAT'S WHO I AM AND THAT'S WHAT I'LL DO FOR YOU


 
MOMENT OF GLORY
BY SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM THE CD DISAPPEAR FEAR (SELF TITLED 1994) and LiVE AT MAXiMAL (2016)

ME AND LISA BOUGHT A MOTORCYLCE STRAPPED MY GUITAR NEXT TO HER KNAPSACK
SHE'S MY LOVER SHE USED TO BE MY RIVAL AND I DON'T WANT MY MONEY BACK

WHAT I KNOW IS - I DON'T KNOW-  WHEN I'M SURE, IT'S ONLY HALF THE STORY
WHAT I WANT IS A HOUSE ON A HILL BUT I SETTLED FOR A MOMENT OF GLORY

ME AND LISA GOING DOWN THE OCEAN WHERE THE HOT SANDS BURN OUR BAREFOOT SKIN
SHE'S PUTTING ON SUNSCREEN CAUSE THE HOLE IN THE OZONE'S THE SAME EXACT SIZE
AS THE AMERICAN SIN
WHAT I KNOW IS - I DON'T KNOW-  WHEN I'M SURE, IT'S ONLY HALF THE STORY
WHAT I WANT IS A HOUSE ON A HILL BUT I SETTLED FOR A MOMENT OF GLORY

ONE MAN'S CHURCH IS ANOTHER MAN'S JAIL  ONE MAN'S FEET GO WHERE ANOTHER MAN'S FAIL
TONIGHT I'LL THROW MY HANDS ACROSS STEEL
NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME, NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME WHAT I FEEL

HEY YEAH.... 
WE'RE ON A LONG RIDE UNDER THE BIG SKY, LISA'S HAIR IS BLOWING THROUGH HER BASEBALL CAP
I'M HOLDING ON TIGHT, GONNA RIDE ALL NIGHT, BY DAWN I'LL BE ASLEEP INSIDE HER CADILLAC

WHAT I KNOW IS - I DON'T KNOW-  WHEN I'M SURE, IT'S ONLY HALF THE STORY
WHAT I WANT IS A HOUSE ON A HILL BUT I SETTLED FOR A MOMENT OF GLORY

ONE MAN'S CHURCH IS ANOTHER MAN'S JAIL  ONE MAN'S FEET GO WHERE ANOTHER MAN'S FAIL
TONIGHT I'LL THROW MY HANDS ACROSS STEEL
NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME, NOBODY'S GONNA TELL ME WHAT TO  FEEL

HEY  YEAH  OO LOVE.







 
BOX OF TISSUES
BY SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM THE CD LIVE AT THE BOTTOM LINE (1992) and LiVE AT MAXiMAL

I PUT A BOX OF TISSUES BY MY BED CAUSE I KNEW THAT I'D BE UP FOREVER WAITING FOR YOU, YOU.
I LEFT THE LIGHT ON IN THE HALL CAUSE I'M IMAGINING YOU FALLING WHEN YOU FINALLY COME HOME, HOME
AND ANYBODY WITH A HEART WOULD HAVE BEEN ALONE BUT YOU BROUGHT HER
AND ANYBODY WITH A BRAIN WOULD HAVE LEFT YOU THEN, BUT I STAYED, I STAYED.

I GATHERED ALL THE PHOTOGRAPHS IN THE HOPE OF TAKING ONE LONG STEAMY BATH ALONE, ALONE
ALL THE WATER ON MY SKIN COULD NOT WASH AWAY THE YEARS OF TRYING TO GET IN, IN.

AND ANYBODY WITH A HEART WOULD HAVE BEEN ALONE BUT YOU BROUGHT HER
AND ANYBODY WITH A BRAIN WOULD HAVE LEFT YOU THEN, BUT I STAYED, I STAYED.

I STAYED AWAKE I STAYED AWAKE I STAYED AWAKE I STAYED AWAKE
EVEN THOUGH MY LOVE LIFE WAS HALF A SLEEP BUT MY HEART WAS BREAKING (in)TO A MILLION PIECES
I STAYED  I STAYED.


I PUT A BOX OF TISSUES BY MY BED CAUSE I KNEW THAT I'D BE UP FOREVER WAITING FOR YOU, YOU.


 
BIGGEST BADDEST HEART (OF GOLD)
BY SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM THE CD LiVE at the DOWN HOME (2001) BLOOD BONES AND BALTIMORE (2008) LiVE AT MAXiMAL (2016)

I CANNOT CONVINCE YOU, I'M NOT GONNA TRY. ONE THING YOU ARE BORN WITH IS YOUR ABILITY TO FLY
I GOT SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT WANNA KNOW- I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART OF GOLD.

SO YOU'RE IN A BAD MOOD ARE YOU GONNA LET IT KILL THE DAY, I KNOW YOU LOVE YOUR DRAMA SEE THE HUMOR MAKE IT PAY
I GOT SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT WANNA KNOW- I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART OF GOLD.

DON'T HAVE NO LAMBERGHINNI TO DRIVE YOU AROUND THIS EARTH  I DONT HAVE NO MASSERATI TO MAKE TRAILS IN THE DIRT
I GOT SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT WANNA KNOW- I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART OF GOLD.

YOU LIKE IT ONCE, YOU LIKE IT TWICE  YOU LIKE IT NAUGHTY BABY OR YOU LIKE IT NICE?
I GOT SOMETHING THAT YOU MIGHT WANNA KNOW- I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART OF GOLD.
YEAH I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART -  I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART  I'VE GOT THE BIGGEST BADDEST HEART....
OF GOLD.......!


 
WAKIN’ UP YOUR HEART
FROM DEEP SOUL DIVER (PHILO/ROUNDER RECORDS)
music and lyrics SONIA RUTSTEIN

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING CRYING
BUT THE SUN WAS SHINNING SAYING DONT CRY
AND WHO AM I TO THINK IT’S SHINNING FRO ME
IT MIGHT AS WELL BE, CAUSE I AM FOR YOU

WANNA GIVE YOU MY HEART, HOPE AND HANDS
ON EVERYTHING MY LIFE DEPENDS
I’LL BE FOR YOU GIVEN THE CHANCE
AND I PROMISE NOT TO TELL
I’LL HIDE MY FEELINGS WELL
OF HOW MISERABLY I FAILED
WAKING UP YOUR HEART

IT’S NOT ANYHTING YOU SAY
AND YET IT’S EVERYTHING YOU SAY
IT’S NOT ANYTHING YOU LIKE NO
AND YET IT’S EVERYTHING LIKE YOU

WANNA GIVE YOU MY HEART, HOPE AND HANDS
ON EVERYTHING MY LIFE DEPENDS
I’LL BE FOR YOU, GIVEN THE CHANCE
AND I PROMISE NOT TO TELL
I’LL HIDE ME FEEELINGS WELL
OF HOW MISERABLY I FAILED
WAKING UP YOUR HEART

WANTED TO TELL YOU EXACTLY HOW I FEEL
BUT A LONG TIME AGO  GOD AND I MADE A DEAL
SO... I PROMISE NOT TO TELL
I’LL HIDE MY FEELINGS WELL
OF HOW MISERABLY I FAILED
WAKING UP YOUR HEART
WAKING UP YOUR HEART
WAKING UP YOUR HEART......
WHO I AM
BY SONIA RUTSTEIN
FROM BLOOD BONES AND BALTIMORE CD ON DISAPPEAR RECORDS

I NEVER MEANT TO ACT  I NEVER MEANT TO FALL
I NEVER MEANT TO ASK OR RISK IT ALL
BUT ONE LOOK IN YOUR EYES  MAKES ME BELIEVE
I CAN TOUCH THE STARS  I CAN KISS THE MOON
WITH JUST MY VOICE  IN PERFECT TUNE
AND MOM
IS IT OK IF I    AM WHO I AM?

COLD DECEMBER MORN I NEED A WITCHES BROOM
I MOVE MY LITTLE HEATER FROM ROOM TO ROOM
LIKE A HAPPY HUNTER IN A SACRED PRAYER
I TASTE YOUR PERFUME EVERYWHERE
AND THE PRIEST REMARKS, WHAT DO YOU BELIEVE
I’M OUT OF TRICKS MATE, NOTHING UP MY SLEEVE-
AND GOD IS IT OK IF I AM WHO I AM?

INSTRUMENTAL

AND AFTER WE’RE ALL
ALL DEAD AND GONE
OUR CHILDREN WILL RISE AND ON THAT MORN
THE UNIVERSE IS ONE, KINGS EQUAL PAWNS
AND I AM PROUD, JUST TO BE BORN

AND MOM YES IT’S OK THAT I AM WHO I AM
AND GOD YES IT’S OK THAT I AM WHO I AM
AND JOHN SAY IT’S OK THAT I AM WHO I AM
SAY AMEN
SAY, AMEN.
 
BEST PART OF KISSING YOU
MUSIC BY SONIA RUTSTEIN  MUSIC AND LYRICS BY SONIA RUTSTEIN AND JODY NUSHOLTZ
FROM THE MUSICAL SMALL HOUSE NO SECRETS  AINOS MUSIC PUBLISHER BMI 

YOU BRING ME LAUGHTER AND PERFECT CHAMPAIGNE
I GIVE YOU ALL I CAN IN RAIN
THIS LOVE IS WONDERFUL A MYSTERY A TRUST
AND I WILL NEVER GET ENOUGH

AND THE BEST PART OF KISSING YOU
IS KISSING YOU
AND IF THIS IS ALL
THEN THIS IS ALL

I THINK GOD IS EVERYTHING WE ARE IN ALL WAYS
THAT EXPLAINS THE PLEASURE AND THE SHAME
I CANT FORGET TO REMEMBER THAT HE IS LISTENING
MARY FORGIVE ME FOR THIS FLAME

AND THE BEST PART OF KISSING YOU
IS KISSING YOU
AND IF THIS IS ALL
THEN THIS IS ALL.
Christmas Makes Me Realize (how much I love you)
words and music by Sonia Rutstein copyright 1988 all rights reserved

From twinkle bells to cockle shells all through the year

In the back of my mind I still hear the chimes of snowy days drawing near

You can feel it I the neighborhood  even the bad boys are being good


Christmas makes me realize how much I love you

Christmas makes me realize how much I love you


 zipper up  it's freezing out -we can't have you catching cold

remember when we used to ask, " Will still love me when I'm old?"

Colder than the sky am I when we're apart

wanna give you everything. But most of all my heart ....


Christmas makes me realize how much I love you

Christmas makes me realize how much I love you

christmas makes me love you....

christmas makes me love you....




single by SDF available on iTunes Amazon and cd baby released 2013
 
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