Broken Film
(2013)

1 - Start
(Sonia Rutstein & Klaus Caprani)

טומי צפה בטלויזיה
באחר צהריים שגרתי
גבר צעיר דיבר עם ילדים
אמר משהו על הושטת יד לירח
והילדים הקשיבו בתשומת לב
כי לגבר היתה רק זרוע אחת ולא היו לו רגליים
המדינה שלי הפכה אותי לחייל
אפגניסטן לא יכולה לקחת זאת ממני
אינני מוכרח לשאת את המשקל הזה לבדי
איש אינו אי ואיש אינו לבדו
ואני לא זקוק לידיים
כדי לאחוז בליבו של אדם אחר
ואני לא זקוק לתוכנית

עליי רק להתחיל"

בפינת חדר אחורי, על שולחן עבודה
מכוסה באבק ובהזנחה
טום מצא ריבוע נייר חום
עם מספר הטלפון של הבת שעזב
אבא היקר, אם אתה קורא את המכתב הזה
אז אני מושיטה אליך יד מהשמיים
אף פעם לא אמרתי לך שאני אוהבת אותך
אך לא התכוונתי שניפרד לשלום
אינך צריך לשאת את המשקל הזה
איש אינו אי ואיש אינו לבדו
ואתה לא זקוק לידיים
כדי לאחוז בליבו של אדם אחר
ואתה לא זקוק לתוכנית

עליך רק להתחיל"

טום ישב בחזרה בכורסא
לגם לגימה אחרונה של בירה
משורר, צייר, מאהב, בן
עבריין מורשע, מכור, גיבור
וכשדמעות זלגו מעיניו
הבין שזה מתורבת
מה שהופך גיבור לאדם
איני צריך לשאת את המשקל לבדי
מורכב ברובי ממים ולא מאבן
ואני לא זקוק לידיים
כדי לאחוז בליבו של אדם אחר
ואני לא זקוק לתוכנית

עליי רק להתחיל"

 

1 - Start
(Sonia Rutstein & Klaus Caprani)

Tommy was watching some TV
On a very ordinary afternoon
A young man was talking to children
Said something ‘bout reaching for the moon
And the children listened intently
Cause the man had one arm and no legs
“My country made me a soldier
Afghanistan can’t take that away
I don’t have to carry this load on my own
No one’s an island and no one’s alone
And I don’t need hands
To hold somebody’s heart
And I don’t need plans
I just need to start”

On a back bedroom desk in a corner
All covered with dust and neglect
Tom found a brown square of paper
With the number of the daughter that he left
“Dear Dad If you’re reading this letter
Then I’m reaching for you from the sky
I never told you I love you
Never will that mean goodbye
You don’t have to carry this load on your own
No one’s an island and no one’s alone
And you don’t need hands
To hold somebody’s heart
And you don’t need plans
You just need to start”

Tom sat back down in his easy chair
Took one good last gulp of beer
A poet, a painter, a lover, a son
A convict, an addict, a hero of one
And as the tears fell from his eyes
He realized it’s civilized
What makes a hero a man
“I don’t have to carry this load on my own
I’m mostly made of water not stone
And I don’t need hands
To hold somebody’s heart
I don’t need plans
I just need to start”

2 - American Artist
[lyrics to be added]

 

3 - Farmland and the Sky

On a train from Amsterdam to Leiden

I can see the farmland and the sky
I will be the tulips in your garden

Til I am the garden going by

My little sister Jane so young yet so wise
Came upon me on you wedding day
And the gift she gave was better than McDonald's french fries

All she said
All she said was

"Stay awake
It all goes by so fast
Live your life
Cause today won't last"

Now Jane's gonna have a baby

I'm the aunt that's a luxury
I'll get to teach guitar and give 'em candy
And probably leave the diaper changes to Nancy

It's the chases I've been changing
Like the numbers that consume me
I can't promise to quit racing

Hopping lane to train to plane
Making suitcase movies
"Stay awake

It all goes by so fast
Love your life
Cause today won't last"

So I sing this song to Micah, Zach and Dylan

And you and you and you
To stay above the gossip and the ruin

WATER YOUR SOUL and you'll keep blooming
"Stay awake

It all goes by so fast
Live your love
Cause today won't last"

4 - Love Out Loud (words and music Sonia Rutstein copyright 2012 BMI)

(אני רוצה לשמוע אותך)
(אני רוצה לראות אותך)

אמור בוקר טוב לאמא ולאבא
כאילו לא תראה אותם יותר
ראה אותם כקורבנות לבבותיהם השבורים
ודע שאינך שונה כל כך

ואתה בוכה על הגבעה
חושב, למה זה עדיין כל כך כואב?

אתה צריך לאהוב בקול רם
לאהוב בקול רם
לאהוב בקול רם
בקול רם, בקול רם

אמור להתראות לאתמול עכשיו
הוא רק זכרון בבית הפחדים
סגור את הדלת, היא מחצית מגודלך
עדיף להיות בצד השני
אי שם בחוץ

ואתה רובץ על הגבעה

חiש בכוח שלך, הזן את כוח הרצון שלך
נושא אותך הביתה

אתה צריך לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לשמוע אותך)
לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לראות אותך)
לאהוב בקול רם
בקול רם, בקול רם

ואתה בוכה על הגבעה
חושב, למה זה עדיין כל כך כואב?

אתה צריך לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לשמוע אותך)
לאהוב בקול רם (אני רוצה לראות אותך)
לאהוב בקול רם (קדימה)
בקול רם, בקול רם

4 - Love Out Loud (words and music Sonia Rutstein copyright 2012 BMI)

(I wanna hear you)
(I wanna see you)

Say good morning to your mom and pop
Like you may never see them again
See them as the victims of their broken hearts
Know you’re not so different
And you cry on a hill
Thinking why does it still hurt so bad?

You Gotta Love Out Loud
Love Out Loud
Love out Loud
Out Loud Out Loud

Say goodbye to yesterday now
It’s just a memory in a house of fear
Close the door it’s half your size
Best to be on the other side
And out of there

And you side on the hill
Feel your strength, feed your will
Taking you home

You Gotta Love Out Load (I wanna hear you)
Love Out Loud (I wanna see you)
Love Out Loud
Out Loud Out Loud

And you cry on the hill
Thinking how come it still hurts so bad?

You Gotta Love Out Load (I wanna hear you)
Love Out Loud (I wanna see you)
Love Out Loud (Come on)
Out Loud Out Loud

5 - Broken Film (words and music by Sonia Rutstein copyright 2012 BMI)

Highways turn and circles bend
And life defines who'll be your friend
Til you stand under them
You never really know

The glow of headlights on the road
Mark my time tired eyes lowering

To see you pouring red wine on the snow -

Was all the talk we tamed confused
With love unnamed it changed

When I needed you, you were only air

How can someone so alive
Who used to be your side

Happy in a galaxy far away
Starring in somebody else's play

Was all the talk we tamed confused
With love unnamed it changed

When I needed you
You were only air

I put your letter to Dad on a cassette
In an envelope I didn't listen to it

That's between you and you

Was all the talk we tamed confused
With love unnamed it changed

When I needed you...

 

6 - L Kol L Vav Cha (With All My Heart) (words and music Sonia Rutstein Copyright 2013 BMI)

I think ultimately we have to save ourselves
Not to be selfish or greedy and not for a rainy day
In fact just the opposite

In Pittsburgh P.A. I find the healing to this feeling is by giving it all away

With all my heart
With all my soul and all myself
With all my heart with all my soul and all myself

Would you please stretch your shoulders
All across the ocean
So I can ride above the monsters I don't know or trust or see
Would you please tell me when it gets easier when
He who makes peace above make peace below


L KOL L VAV CHA NOF CHE CHA L KOL ME O DECHA

Would you please do the right thing
Like you said you would
So we can have our wedding loud and perfectly good
With all my heart with all my soul and all myself

With all my heart with all my soul and all myself

Oh say shalom bin roman who yah a say shalom alienu ve yakol
ah ah ah...

 

7 - Be Like You

You and I go back so far
Before there were words
Back when we were shooting stars
Now I beg you beg you beg you beg you
Don't leave them now
Cause I want to want to want to want to
Get to you somehow

Wanted to be like you
Wanted to be like you
Wanted to be like you
Wanted to be like you
Wanted to be like you

You and he played a very long blame game
Of Hide and Seek

Grabbing for fortune and pain fame
And I suppose that's why you never listen to me
All your running running running running
Won't make you free

Wanted to be like you
Wanted to be like you...

Now I see what I don't want to see
I gave you one but you took 7 1 4 3

And I'm tired of lying and looking the other way
And I'm tired of denying everything you say

Wanted to be like you
Wanted to be like you

Wanted to be like you
You you you you you...

 

8 - The Banker

Not a bank it's a banker
Not a paper not a symbol
Not a building not a bubble
Just some bad seed human beings

This is the story of a Middle Man's life
Loved baseball, bowling and banging his wife

And they had 2 children Rick and Jane
And they shared their love kissed away the pain

Chorus 1:
And every day the bills came in

Middle Man paid he best he can
Now only bones are left of him
Cause he gave the Banker all of his skin
Gave the Banker all of his skin

Middle Man believed in free will
Know the credit card is not a magic pill

And when they found a house the bank said BUY IT
Unaware of the Banker's insatiable diet

Chorus 2:
And every day the bills come in

Money became his true religion
There's not one law protecting him
Cause he gave the Banker all of his skin
Gave the Banker all of his skin
How did the Banker reward him?
Raised his rate to 3 times 10

Now the Holy Bank of Taj McColl
Bank of the Royal Untouchables
Rain an endless reign of selfish goals
And stole the American Middle Man's Soul

Chorus one

Middle Man had not a greedy hand
He was a honest Joe like the Cambell's Soup man
But he lost his job and Mama got thin
When they took his house turned to a life of sin
He held up Raheed at the local store
When I win my millions I'll pay up back more”
But that day God forgot to keep score
Middle Man died in a puddle on the floor

Chorus two

Not a bank it's a Banker
Not a paper not a symbol
Not a building not a bubble
Just some bad seed human beings

 

9 - Princess and the Honey Bee
(Sonia Rutstein & Kasper Lapp)

Once upon a rose
Lived a very little princess

Ruling all alone
All settled on her throne
She was the queen of everything
That she could see
Then she fell in love with the Honey Bee

Every day at dawn as the sun lit up the petals
The Honey Bee would come

And find the rose's tongue
She'd say hello but he'd ignore her and just go
He was so busy
He'd miss the kisses she would blow

Waiting waiting hoping dreaming
That one day
He would wake up
She's the queen of all the garden
But she can't make him fall in love

One day she was gone
And at first he didn't notice
Slowly he began to feel the coldness of the morn
He never knew of all the love she felt for him
And so it goes, we'll never know
What could have been

 

10 - Perfect Shade (Blue)
(Sonia Rutstein & Jane Snyder)

I can't put my finger on it
Nothing's changed since yesterday

But the blues just came upon me
Like a hurricane in May
And I hope that by tomorrow
I can put a smile back on
Find a reason to be happy
Let the blues be really gone

Chorus:
If I'm gonna be blue

If I'm gonna be blue
If I'm gonna be blue...
It's gotta be the perfect shade
If I'm gonna be blue
Since I'm gonna be blue
If I'm gonna be blue
It's got to be custom made...

Don't need anyone's permission
I'll just give in to myself
Spend the day without ambition
Leave those deadlines on the shelf
Thinking the things I need to think
Taking the time I want to take
To figure out how I can heal and
Maybe learn from my mistakes

Chorus

Like a brand new box of crayons
Colors fill the world I know
But when I'm feeling down
There's just one that really shows...

Chorus

 

11 - Ari Ari

Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me
Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me

I reach across the desert sky
In the middle of the night...
I take your hand in mine
And together we make light...

Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me
Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me

We left Karmiel at nine
Drove up up up to the Golan Heights
The stars became so close
And the moon so big and bright

Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me
Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me

My friend Steven doesn't believe in God
He thinks we're all mermaids and frogs

But if he was standing there
And the light was pouring through his hair
He could feel Schina everywhere...

Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me
Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me

Looking to my right I see an angel
Looking to my left I see an angel
And I'm riding on a donkey when the donkey stops
So I take off my blinders and I see
He sees more than me... more than me

Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me
Ari Ari won't you come and play your song for me

Ani yodat ani mevina kat tsat
Ani yodat ani mevina kat tsat
(i know i understand a little)