By My Silence

On September 1 on my way to Poland I was delayed by Nazi Rallies. My experience touring all around Germany has been so positive and I feel we cannot let scapegoat idiocracy destroy our liberty. With the rise of anti-Semitism it is urgent to sing about these issues in a new/old way. On Oct 26 I finished the recording and unplugged for Shabbat. Saturday night I turned the TV back on to the horror of that morning in Pittsburgh. It is my hope and belief that music can bring us the power of grace over the rise of hatred.

By My Silence the CD by SONiA disappear fear release date: November 26 2018 10 fresh new recordings- 5 songs written by SONiA, Hallelujah by Leonard Cohen, Hatikvah, 2 Hebrew Folk songs, one song in Kurdish and the ever requested By My Silence written by Ellen Bukstel and Nick Annis. Shipping - Early December CD includes full song lyrics in English, Kurdish and Hebrew. FILE UNDER FOLK, Jewish Folk Music, International Folk Music and Rockabilly.

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SPECIAL DEAL - 10 By My Silence CDs for $150

$150.00

This is a great way to buy Holiday gifts for everyone. 10 copies of By My Silence for $150. If you don't want all 10 to be SONiA's new CD, you can email me and we can add different ones in. nancy@disappearfear.com

Igor and the Lunatics: Vinyl

$40.00

Bloody Horror Film Soundtrack. SONiA wrote and recorded the entire score. Janet Guerra and Diane (Bowman) Stepphens and Bill Monore with SONiA are the musicians. The film was the first feature film written and directed by Billy Parolini. DVDs are available at Amazon.

LiVE at MAXiMAL: Double Live CD

$30.00

SONiA’s latest Double Live CD (2016) A double CD “LiVE at MAXiMAL” is from SONiA’s performance at a concert In Rodgau, Germany. 20 songs "real and passionate bubbling up acoustic energy" - The Folk Beast - Grammy Contender for BEST FOLK ALBUM 59th Grammy Awards Feb 12 2016

Broken Film: CD

$20.00

This is SONiA’s 17th CD was recorded in Nashville in December of 2012 with Mike Poole Keith Urband, Johhny Cash) engineering and guitarist Don Conoscenti on lead guitar, Don Kerce (The Tommy Dorsey Band) on bass, drummer Brian Owings (Emmylou Harris) it is a Must Have for your SONiA disappear fear collection. Also touring disappear band are percussionist / vocalist Laura Cerulli (from Mama’s Black Sheep) and violinist Helen Hausmann and NYC vocalist Elaine Romanelli. Bringing it all together is Sound Engineer / Co-Producer Mike Poole (Keith Urban, John Prine, Robert Plant, Patty Griffin, Martina McBride, Johnny Cash).

Get Your Phil: CD

$20.00

SONiA disappear fear peforming ten songs written by the late Phil Ochs. This CD presents the harmonizing vocals of SONiA and CiNDY that have not been featured since Seed in the Sahara. The CD is 100% made in America Folk Music, and was number one for several months on the Folk DJ charts.

Blood, Bones & Baltimore: CD

$20.00

The Blues-Americana CD by SONiA disappear fear recorded in Baltimore. Joining SONiA are wonderful musicians all from the Baltimore/Washington area: Laura Cerulli on percussion, Helen Hausmann on violin, Seth Kibel on sax, clarinet and flute, Howard Markman on guitar, Michael Bowie on bass, with special appearances by Dylan Visvikis on piano and Cindy on vocals. 10 great tracks of all original new songs, except the long time favorite of fans, "Biggest, Baddest Heart" and Woody Guthrie’s "Worried Man Blues."

Splash: CD- SOLD OUT - Download Avaiable - Please go to download page.

$20.00

This compilation CD called "Splash" contains favorites from "tango" and "No Bomb is Smart" as well as 3 songs recorded Live. Also 4 songs never released before: early versions of "The Other Man," "Obviously," and "Love Names Me." Plus a brand new song written by Ellen Bukstel and Nick Annis, "By My Silence," based on the poem by Pastor Martin Niemoller during the Holocaust of WW II.

tango: CD

$20.00

"t a n g o" is SONiA disappear fear's dance with the World. Award-winning American-born singer/songwriter SONiA Rutstein composes 12 songs in Spanish, Hebrew, Arabic, and English creating a Latin-Middle Eastern folk-pop sound. True to her lifelong cause of a world without fear, these songs weave political trials of love and romance next to heartfelt political ideologies. The songs combine the indigenous sounds of djembes, tin whistles, violins, and acoustic guitars, and resonate with the harmonies of disappear fear. Making guest appearances are Rabbi Elizabeth Bolton and members of the original disappear fear band. Lyrics are included in a colorful 24-page booklet written in all four languages and illustrated with SONiA's original paintings.

DF05 LiVE: - SOLD OUT ( download available)

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In 2005 SONiA asked some female friends to create an all women DF and again - this is a LIVE CD with Laura Cerruli on percussion & back up vocals, and A. Edge from Arkansas on trumpet and bass. Cover photo by Erica Gloger from DC Pride Festival Main Stage. 2004

No Bomb is Smart: CD

$20.00

Recorded in Nashville with a stellar Grammy lineup of producers and musicians and featuring the luxurious harmonies of CiNDY Frank (the original sound of disappear fear). The first song is a beautiful rendition of the Phil Ochs tune "No More Songs." The other 11 tracks are penned and delivered by SONiA with the full proof insurance of Craig Krampf on drums and knees, Glen Worf on bass, Bill Cuomo on strings and organs, Ed Snodderly on mandola and dobro... and more, more, more.

Live at The Down Home: - SOLD OUT (download available)

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Recorded LiVE on a hot sweaty night at SONiA's favorite American music club, the Down Home in Eastern Tennessee. Joining SONiA for some fine African drumming is Michelle Treece. Song selection includes some of the most popular tunes of disappear fear, for example Fallin', Sink The Censorship, Sexual Telepathy, Be The One, Two Eggs Over Easy, and many more. This is raw and real...no fudging...just one real fun beer-slinging night. AVAILABLE FOR DOWNLOAD: http://soniadisappearfear.com/song-downloads

Me, Too: CD

$20.00

Me, Too was recorded in Baltimore as a joint venture between SONiA and multi-instrumentalist John Grant. Most of the instruments were played by SONiA and John with some help from Berklee College of Music Jazz genius Jane Miller and some fine background vocals from CiNDY. The title track was chosen to be on the HRC benefit CD to help the Human Rights Campaign.

Almost Chocolate: CD - Download Only

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Recorded in June 1997 in Sturbridge Massachusets - it is SONiA’s first solo CD. Amid a whirlwind of changes personally and in personnel, the songs have sparse yet tasty and mesmirizing arrangements. Cindy added background vocals making it all comes together.

Seed in the Sahara: CD - Download Only

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This 1996 disappear fear CD, produced by Roy Bittan, keyboard player from the E street band, features many favorite songs of disappear fear fans, including title song "Seed in the Sahara", "Michelangelo" and B.Y.O.G. This CD is available for download: http://soniadisappearfear.com/song-downloads

Live at the Bottom Line: Download Only

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Contains 13 songs: 8 live from the sister duo and 5 studio songs with Susan Charnely on bass and Debbie Flood on drums. This CD is available for download on iTunes: https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/live-at-the-bottom-line/id203965381

Live at the Bottom Line: cassette

$10.00

The only physical version of "Live at the Bottom Line" currently available, we have a limited number of high quality cassettes for you!

disappear fear: CD - Download Only

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Recorded from Christmas to New Year’s in 1993/4 with multi Grammy and Oscar winning Craig Krampf in the dummer’s and producer’s chair. This first self titled CD earned much acclaim including the fastest selling CD on Philo/Rounder out of the box, GLAAD Award for best album of 1994 (Elton John preceeding years’ recipient) and Mix Magazine’s Top 25 of 1994 just behind Elvis Costello. It has a stellar line up of Nashville’s Best including Grammy winning Kenny Greenberg (Amy Grant) Don Kerce (Tommy Dorsey Band) Pete Wiles Jon Carrol (Mary Chapin Carpenter). It features the real touring band members as well Marc Lawrence, Mike Alexander, Howard Markman and Brian Simms. Special guests on background vocals Indigo Girls and Janis Ian.

Deep Soul Diver: Vinyl

$40.00

Deep Soul Diver is disappear fear's sophomore release, recorded at Secret Sound Studio with John Grant. It was during this record production that SONiA was inspired to create the following words which became the essence of all disappear fear songs and lyrics to the later penned song Tango sung by SONiA in Arabic on the CD “tango”

“the world is read to disappear fear. a world that is not afraid to love itself. a world that is ending hunger in the many forms that hunger exists. no one is left out. so tomorrow, when the first rays of dawn reach like swords of light into your eyes, begin the day like a tango with your soul. in love with life because you are."

Deep Soul Diver: cassette

$10.00

Alongside the vinyl version of "Deep Soul Diver," we now also have a limited number of high quality cassettes for you!

Echo My Call: CD

$20.00

The very first CD by disappear fear. Echo My Call was the number one album of the year at Baltimore’s Towson University Radio WCVT. The song Vertigo about the incident at Chernobyl was also number on their DJ charts which gave the band national/international buzz interest on and led to their first Publishing deal in London and New York with Carlin/Freedy Bienstock Publishing. SONiA sent a copy to the President Mikail Gorbachev commending his glasnost and peristroika world move and in turn the whole album became an undergound hit in the reformation of Russia.

FAN PACK

$33.00

Our new Fan Pack - A copy of SONiA's new CD 'By My Silence", a copy of the By My Silence Poster and our new disappear fear button.

Adult Onesies

$80.00

Our fun onesies now in adult sizes! SUPER comfy made out of the same thick cotton as the lining of our hoodies. DANGER though - you will never want to take it off!

New Ladies V-Neck Tie-Dye Short Sleeve Shirts

$20.00

New V-Neck Ladies shirts in Pink, Pastel Rainbow and Royal Blue.

Short Sleeve Unisex Love Out Loud Shirts

$20.00

Our Love Out Loud Shirts in original and new colors.

Love Out Loud Tote Bags

$25.00

Love Out Loud drawstring Tote Bags

Tie Dyed Pullover Sweatshirts

$60.00

Our Amazing Pullover Sweatshirts in New Colors: Tie Dyed Rainbow and Ocean Blue.

New Love Out Tank Tops

$20.00

New Tie Dyed Love Out Loud Tank Tops

Kids Love Out Loud Tie-Dye Shirts

$18.00

Our Love Out Loud Tie Dyed Shirts for Kids.

V-Neck Solid Color Love Out Loud T-Shirts

$20.00

Ladies Solid Color, V-Neck Love Out Loud T-Shirts.

Baby Onesies

$18.00

Short Sleeve Solid Color Love Out Loud T-Shirt

$20.00

A short sleeve solid color version of the Love Out Loud shirts

disappear fear baseball cap

$20.00

Fully adjustable, 100% cotton hat with peace sign on the front and rainbow imprinted with disappear fear on the back. Contrasting color sandwich on brim. Hat colors are Olive with Putty, Black with Red, Navy with White, Mango with Navy, Khaki with Navy, Black with White, White with Black, Red with Black, Tangerine with Navy, Stone with Black, and Stone with Blue.

Short Sleeve Tie-Dye Love Out Loud T-Shirts

$20.00

Tie-dyed Love Out Loud T-Shirts in Rainbow, Spiral Blue and Purple.

Broken Film T-Shirt (limited edition)

$20.00

Broken Film shirt in honor of the CD release. 100% heavy cotton and 100% American made. The Broken Film cover is on the front of the shirt.

Short Sleeve Symbols T-shirts

$20.00

Black shirts with black symbols on white squares (shown), Navy shirts with navy symbols on white squares or White shirt with white symbols on blue squares.

Long Sleeve Love Out Loud Solid Color T-shirts

$25.00

Long sleeve version of our original Love Out Loud t-shirt in green, black and red.

Long Sleeve Symbols T-shirt

$25.00

Long sleeve, 100% cotton T-shirt in black, white, purple, red, orange, cardinal blue and dark heather. We have children's sizes of this great shirt in colors black, white, orange, red, columbia blue, purple, grey and heather.

Long Sleeve Tie Dyed Love Out Loud T-shirt

$25.00

Long sleeve version of our very popular short sleeve tie dyed shirts. Available in Blue, Purple or Rainbow.

disappear fear T-shirt - women's cut

$20.00

Women's cut disappear fear T-shirt. Available in sport grey, light pink, iris blue and pistachio.

disappear fear zip hoodie

$60.00

80% cotton, 20% polyester, disappear fear on front and symbols on the back. Pre-shrunk, Pouch pockets. Jersey-lined hood with matching drawcord.

Each Other

$880.00

Acrylic 18x24

Peace Giraffe (SOLD)

Not available

Acrylic 24x30 thank you!!

Mini Kissing Guitars

$300.00

Acrylic 6x8

Kissing Guitars

$500.00

Acrylic 11x14

PAiNTiNGS by SONiA

$500.00

When SONiA is not on tour she is sometimes available to make commissioned painting- inquiries welcome email sonia@disappearfear.com Price for each individual painting depends on the size of the painting and other specific factors.